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so im doin laundry and morning bumpkin stuff. i was thinking about how i will inherit nothing from my granny probably… i was thinking about how she spent all that money, the excuses shes used recently when baiting me into arguments and i bring that garbage up (yikes) and her speech impediment… the speech impedimentContinue reading “god”

I cannot forget how evil and cruel, reaching and desperate this person is. No matter what, I cannot forget how unsafe people, even beyond me, are in the realm and presence of this person. Their priorities are self focused, self interested and will never shift or change or be relinquished. She uses people to feedContinue reading “Things I cannot forget”

well woke up feeling really terrible. i know that its because of her and how she treats me. her toxic habits and perpetual warrior/victim dance is unbearable to witness and even worse to be around. last night her dog ran upstairs into my room, and i petted him then sent him back downstairs. i hearContinue reading “banana and coffee”

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this situation is expired. i have total clarity and there is no going back, ever. yesterday evening i felt some kind of guilt, which is part of being raised in this dynamic, coming from her, and my family, and needs to be acknowledged but only to be aware of its discard, for my own sakeContinue reading “it’s over.”

well, i’ve looked into some places to live and im really considering leaving. i would just rent a uhaul. if it is possible, to leave, something i need to consider if i want to tell anyone? i don’t know. should i contact my uncle mike? should i ask him for advice? trust him to keepContinue reading “untitled”

it’s a rainy day. its nice out. im considering dismantling the garden. i dont know if i want to go to phys therapy, i think i should. my grandmother on my mothers side had a stroke on friday, so that and talking to my mom again had initially put a large strain on me. iContinue reading “monday, monday”

So when Sandy took me to get my bike, we discusssed the situation, she asked how things were going. I basically said I am in hell and totally unhappy ::shrug:: She’s nuts, I don’t really care what she thinks or says, but she did clarify something for me. She mentioned the cremation issue- what aContinue reading “Yesterday”