god

so im doin laundry and morning bumpkin stuff. i was thinking about how i will inherit nothing from my granny probably… i was thinking about how she spent all that money, the excuses shes used recently when baiting me into arguments and i bring that garbage up (yikes) and her speech impediment… the speech impediment i believe has something to do with her partial, but it sounds like she has a bunch of broken half mushy chunks of calcuim in her mouth as she speaks. its so weird and makes me feel nauseated. i guess growing up with someone so superficial and interested in controlling how others see them and seeing her decay into the tobacco stains, dog hair, mush mouth, moritification obsession drama and tv stuff – its quite painful. this is what ive been avoiding. it will happen with all of them, the ugliness. i will never let this happen to me, ever. i dont care what occurs around me. i refuse.